Take me to a far away place...

Where my dreams can't find me.

Because lately my dreams have been finding me here.

Is there any reason a dream should upset me that much to where I need to call my boyfriend home to tell him? I don't know, but I did.

People always tell us that we're free, we have freedom because of what our military does for us every single day.

They're wrong.

We're slaves to our own minds every second of every day. And sometimes our minds can be crueler than the world. It's unbearable to be stuck inside your own mind at times. It's like screaming at the top of your lungs on a busy street and no one hears you. No one even sees you. And the fact is, YOU DON'T MATTER THAT MUCH. No matter who you are or who you know. You're a speck. Forgive me for being brutally honest. No one likes to hear that they don't matter.

On a lighter note, we're going to see the new Transformers tonight. Connor is thrilled, and I bet Sarah is excited since it was her idea. It's hard for me to be excited about anything lately. My family is falling apart. I don't have a job. Where is my life even going? Anywhere? Someone keyed mine and Connor's cars. Which I'm pissed about because my car is still pretty new, and I'm still paying for it. God I feel like I'm writing a book about my pathetic life.

Yes I've been very very lucky in my life to have what I've been given, but every one's life is a little pathetic. And what better way to lash out than on here? I have a sinus infection too. Which just puts the cherry on top of such a great point in my young, stupid life.

But hey, I am in love, with possibly the most amazing guy I could ever ask for. And he gets me through the toughest situations, sometimes the situation even being him!

You're the definition of the absolute best and you're the reason I get through life.

I love you Connor Savage.