Bachelor parties and Sims 2.

Well I suppose my gorgeous love loves is out with his friends. Boys and their bachelor parties. Hah. Don't you ever wonder what they AREN'T telling you? :P

So I'm just sitting at home, playing Sims and doing laundry. Parentals have people from work over for dinner. Yeah Scott invited people from work to come over and hang out, and to talk about work even more? Such fun.

So I found out today that I'm not eligible for financial aid anymore. That includes my student loans, so YAY for me I get to figure out how to pay for my fall semester with no money. That also might be the cherry on top of my young stupid life.

By any means.

Connor says I just need to stay positive and not blame everything on everybody else. I know he just wants what's best for me and he's looking out for my best interest. So sweet. I really do have an amazing boyfriend. And I want everyone to be jealous. So...be jealous.

And I guess you could say this is my new favorite song? Ish? I don't know but it gets stuck in my head an awful lot.

Ok well, that's all for now.

Pikachu.

Take me to a far away place...

Where my dreams can't find me.

Because lately my dreams have been finding me here.

Is there any reason a dream should upset me that much to where I need to call my boyfriend home to tell him? I don't know, but I did.

People always tell us that we're free, we have freedom because of what our military does for us every single day.

They're wrong.

We're slaves to our own minds every second of every day. And sometimes our minds can be crueler than the world. It's unbearable to be stuck inside your own mind at times. It's like screaming at the top of your lungs on a busy street and no one hears you. No one even sees you. And the fact is, YOU DON'T MATTER THAT MUCH. No matter who you are or who you know. You're a speck. Forgive me for being brutally honest. No one likes to hear that they don't matter.

On a lighter note, we're going to see the new Transformers tonight. Connor is thrilled, and I bet Sarah is excited since it was her idea. It's hard for me to be excited about anything lately. My family is falling apart. I don't have a job. Where is my life even going? Anywhere? Someone keyed mine and Connor's cars. Which I'm pissed about because my car is still pretty new, and I'm still paying for it. God I feel like I'm writing a book about my pathetic life.

Yes I've been very very lucky in my life to have what I've been given, but every one's life is a little pathetic. And what better way to lash out than on here? I have a sinus infection too. Which just puts the cherry on top of such a great point in my young, stupid life.

But hey, I am in love, with possibly the most amazing guy I could ever ask for. And he gets me through the toughest situations, sometimes the situation even being him!

You're the definition of the absolute best and you're the reason I get through life.

I love you Connor Savage.

Could we add some color please?

Yes I realize that it's pretty ugly at the moment. Currently trying to figure out how to customize it.

But in the mean time, I'd like to let everybody know that Cotton Patch Cafe is the worst place in the world to work. I think out of all my jobs, I hated that one the most. And come on, who can really fire you for looking for a better job? Apparently they can. And they can also get away with making us work 12 hour Sunday's with no break. I can see what Courtney mean't by EFF Cotton Patch. No one likes you. And that means you Cody, Scott and Trevor. The 3 dumbest managers on the planet. Whatever.

My life is currently like the song "Jump Rope" by Blue October. Except maybe a little less catchy. I don't know how many of you care, but I like to compare my current lifestyle to songs.

So there's my first post. I feel better. Still waiting for Connor (amazing boyfriend) to get off work. He's still working at the worst place in the world. Hoping my interview at Bass Hall went well enough to get me the job.

This is my favorite picture of Connor and I ever. I feel the need to share it on every webpage I can. :] Love you baby.

- Ana